Homesick...

Well we are 2 months down and 10ish to go!  So far it hasn’t been too bad. Since he’s still stateside for a bit for training, we can text throughout the days and I get a phone call just about every night.  I am definitely not ready for what comes next.  I am hoping that we still get to talk often but I am not going to plan on it so I won’t be disappointed. 

To help prepare for the next phase I am very excited to join in on the Tour of Duty Online Bible Study.  http://www.wivesoffaith.org/next-steps/grow/tour-of-duty/summer-study-registration

You can also purchase the book at: http://www.lifewaystores.com/lwstore/product.asp?isbn=1415869332&mscssid=MDV1KV1WRGDF8KKCT857RWVX1BRS2DM2

I am hoping that it will help me deal and also connect me with some amazing Christian mil wives! 

Also I am trying to work on some deployment goals.  Hope to have some hashed out this weekend. But, honestly goals are hard for me because im often to guilty of setting unreasonable goals then just feeling like a failure but I am gonna attempt to make a list of some goals/wishes. 

I am hoping with an 18 mo old, a 6 mo old and a baby due in November that our time will pass quickly.  Though so far this past 2-3 months of training has seemed like an eternity!  I did wear his shirt for 3 days and jump everytime my text tone goes off hoping it will be him.  My lil monkey now grabs my phone and hands it to me and says DaDa every time I get a text! Haha! 

I heard a song the other day that has a whole different meaning but to me it seemed to speak to me. It talks about missing someone and says if home is where your heart is then im out of place and that’s exactly how I feel.  My heart is with my soldier and though life goes on I still somehow out of place without him close to me.  The song is Homesick by Mercy Me and it says:

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now