Weight loss Wednesday update

Yea I know I'm a day behind but things were beyond crazy with the kidos yesterday! Monkey has some molars coming in and he cried all day! Nothing helped! He'd cry while saying teeth then asking for medicine and ice cream! Poor guy!

Over the Christmas weekend I pretty much fell off of the wagon! Knowing that I was going to start HCG on the day after Christmas. I wish I hadn’t bc I gained 7 lbs back of the 16 I lost! I am learning that at this point every single decision really does count! In the 3 days since I started HCG I have lost 7 lbs! I don't feel like I've lost anything since I pretty much just got rid of what I had gained. But today is a fresh day and I am excited to see the lbs continue to come off over the next several weeks!

I debated if I should mention HCG or not. It is controversial and I was very skeptical when I heard of others doing it. But since I'm one of those people who puts stock in what Dr. Oz says and he approved it so I decided to find out more info and do more research. What I found I liked so I decided to give it a go!

I know fad diets aren’t the answer and that it's all about healthy choices and changing your lifestyle. Really that is exactly what I am doing. I'm using this 40 days of a very low calorie diet to retrain myself, to get back into the habit of disciplining myself and learning the importance of portions and wise decisions.

I know several people who have done it, lost weight and kept it off. Of course at the end I can't go back to a diet of cheese burgers, fried foods and chips but being healthy is much more rewarding then some fried pickles!
I love these 2 lil pinterest inspirations…

from enthuasticrunner.com

http://pinterest.com/optimusness/fitness-watch-me-shrink/

Where I am today, health wise, is a compilation of all the bad choices I made in the past.  I once changed my diet and lost a great deal but then when I was pregnant with the monkey I used it as an excuse to be a pig and eat ridiculous amounts of ultra greasy, high fat foods, to eat a bag of chips in one sitting, to get ice cream and French fries on a regular basis and the sum of all those bad choices may have tasted good at the time but looking back were not worth it!  Just as my week of Christmas gorge fest was not worth the 7 lbs! 

I was going to post my very last before pic but I think I will wait a few weeks and do a side by side of the difference !
Thanks to all my friends who are supporting me in this endeavor and I cant wait to see what the next few weeks bring!!! 

Tomorrow is a bad excuse :)

I decided to get serious about this weight loss journey a little less than 2 weeks ago and since then I have lost 16.4 lbs!

What I FINALLY realized, as I was sipping a Grande Peppermint Mocha Frap, was there have been TOO many times I used the excuse that I would start 'tomorrow' or I will start Monday or on the 1st or for the new year but there comes a point when you decide tomorrow is too late! Next week is way too late and next month is completely unacceptable! If 2 weeks ago I would have said I'm going to wait till after the holidays I'd still be 17 lbs heavier, If not more! 

Speaking from experience if I had made a future start date instead of right then I'd prob once again come to that start date and keep making excuses or try and fail to easily. There has to come a point where you stop saying tomorrow or next week I'll do it and you just decide to do it now!
You may have a bad day or take a day off for Christmas and New Year but why waste all those days in between.  I know for me that for as long as I can remember every time I said okay ill start on Monday, Monday would roll around, I’d do amazing for half the day then epic fail set it and because I had already set in the habit of ‘starting tomorrow’, tomorrow easily became next week and next week easily became next year!

Today I started a ‘Put Down That Cookie’ support group amongst some of my FB friends and Fam and I am so every excited! Everyone has their own goals and their own methods but its great to have encouragement from others going through the same things!  When I started writing this ‘tomorrow’ blog it was before that group started and before people said oh I will start tomorrow, so if you are one that said ‘tomorrow’ this blog is not directed at you and it was started before you said tomorrow and its just part of my journey.  I want the days that I blog about weight loss to be a real look at the struggles and challenges I am facing and overcoming! 
I also want to say the things to someone else in the same boat as I am, 100 lbs overweight, that i wish someone would have said to me! I wish a LONG time ago some one would have had the balls to quit dancing around the facts and say get off your badankadonk and do something! 

Id rather start right this minute and make mistakes along the say but keep pressing through then to keep putting off tomorrow what could very easily change my life today and totally reshape my future!  Every moment counts, every decision counts and as hard as it is to say ‘no’ to those bad things its time to sit down, make realistic goals and run after them with everything you have!  

from fitfirmfast.blogspot.com

Not everyone reading this has 100 or even 50 or even 30 lbs to lose but no matter what your goals are they are all achievable if you put your mind to it!  Hello almost 17 lbs in 2 weeks! Cant wait to look back at the end of this next year and say heck yes i did it!!! How about you???

Being Fat and never going back!

First off this is my first time to blog from my iPhone so I'm hoping it works out!

Today I went to my last OB appointment and it was bitter sweet. I have become so close to my OB and her staff after 3 back to back pregnancies! They are all so much fun and it's going to be sad to not be seeing them every month but I am certainly glad that our lil family is now complete! My OB and I talked about the fact that I had lost over 15 lbs since I was there a week and a half ago and i told her how I planned to loose much more!
My last appt before I had jax I topped out at an ungodly weight! A number worthy of the biggest looser! I understand most of the almost 40lbs I lost since giving birth was pregnancy weight but still... Whew!
My OB said she couldn't wait to see how skinny I would be when I came back for my yearly appt in the summer! I cant wait either!

When I left my appointment i headed over to the gas station. While pumping gas I noticed a 'big' girl walking out with a gigantic soda bottle and an even more gigantic bag of chips and I was so quickly taken back to the amount of times that was me. I can't even tell you how many times I ran in for some chips or some hot fries and a soda... And without even thinking about it polished off the whole bag!

There's such a difference in the will of someone who 'is' fat in every since of the word and someone who may 'be' fat and has decided that enough really is enough and they're not going back.

Some people freak out over the word fat bc it's mean or whatever but the simple reality and honest to goodness truth of it is when your bmi isn't just overweight, it's obese or even morbidly obese its time to stop candy coating it and take a hard look at the sad reality... I'm fat! It's much easier to candy coat the reality and laugh it off and dance around the subject but the reality and the truth is plain and simple! The only time a true change can actually unfold is when you stop accepting it, stop being ok with it, stop dancing around the truth and let reality slap you in the face and get serious!

Im not saying we all need to look like Barbie, but obesity is a sickness, there's an unhealthy addiction that comes along with it and for me I realize these things and can proudly look at where I am and say once and for all, yep I'm fat! But not for much longer!!!
Every day I'm that much closer to my goal! Every pound that I loose is one less pound of fatness and one step closer to health and being fit!

It's not about being skinny its about being healthy, it's about being able to look at the real numbers and see that you are in a healthy range and not putting yourself at risk for much worse things!
It's about putting down that bag of chips and that large dr pepper or that candy bar or that ice cream and realizing its time to make the right choices and to stop making excuses!

Idk about you but I'm beyond fed up with being a part of a statistic. Im fed up with not wanting to be in pictures with my husband or family im fed up with all the side effects that come from being fat! I'm fed up With being larger than all my friends and a million other things! This is why I'm able to make the change!

Seeing that girl, which is an exact picture of where I was a month ago, just inspired me more to be able to say I am leaving fat town and I'm never going back!!!!

The Power of Addiction

Its weird to me to think of ‘unhealthy’ food as an addiction but today as I was faced with a bag of chocolate that my kids got from church I quickly realized what it feels like to fight addiction. 

I went to a Christmas party on Friday Night and there was tons of food! I kept busy and really it was no big deal to stay away from bad choices.  But today as I was home alone, with the exception of my kids, I was faced with the choice.  I looked at the snickers and the twix and said NO! But then the oh so loud voice of addiction spoke up and filled my mind with reasons why it was ok.   For every time I said no and walked away I found myself thinking of half a dozen reasons why I should eat just one!  Before I knew it, I had eaten 5! UGH!

image from diseaseproof.com

I should have read the quote on my phone that says…

“Hold on, Put that down! Look how far you’ve come! Look at your goals!  Think of how great you are good you are going to feel once you hit those goals.  Do you really want that? Do you NEED it?  NO! Don’t eat it! Its not healthy! Go eat some fruit to replace that, you can do this!  You are not a failure, you are strong and you can stick to eating healthy! If you eat it you will just feel gross, unhealthy and fat after.  Say no! Its not worth it!”

I found this quote on pinterest and cant find it for anything now but it is so good! I need to pin it up everywhere!

Its true that after I felt gross, I felt like a failure and I felt like a fatty giving in and I am sure that once I see the number on the scale in the morning I will more than concede with its seriously not worth it! I realize that there will be days like this but I also realize that its more than just wanting to change my lifestyle its breaking addictions!

I never really understood addiction before.  If someone had an addiction I would think well just quit and heres the reason why. And I couldn’t understand why they cant just say no for the bigger picture.  But now I do.  Its like you want to say no, you know you need to say no and before you know it you find yourself immersed in the sin!  Before you say oh that’s not a big deal or its not sin its just a little candy you have to understand that one piece of candy to a fatty is like one drink to an alcoholic!  Or one peek of a half dressed woman to a porn addict or one sniff of pot to a pot head… That one lil taste is NEVER enough.. Before you know it the addiction takes hold of you and at the end you are filled with regret, wishing you could take back what you had just done but you cant! 

That first lil snickers was so yummy before I knew it I was eating a twix (these were bite size) 1 lil bite turned into 5 lil pieces of candy, then an oreo (since was making oreo balls for a gift) then a bite of red velvet cake (making red velvet cake balls) then a pretzel rod… it might as well have been an all-out binge but luckily it ended there.

I think back to the movie “Love Dare” and how the man threw out his computer bc it kept tempting him and though that seemed very drastic I realized you have to remove the temptation in order to succeed. Recovering alcoholics cant even have a beer in their house because that temptation of one drink is often to much for an addicted person to overcome on their own!

I should have said no thank you to the bag of candy, my kids are to small for it anyway.  I should have not thought it would be nice to make oreo balls and cake balls and chocolate and candy coated pretzel rods for others because not only am I giving them unhealthy gifts I am putting this big ole carb addicted fatty right in the midst of a butt load of temptation.  Basically I set myself up for failure!  Its like sending an alcoholic into the liquor store with $100 and saying don’t buy anything… DUH! How could I roll up that yummy oreo ball and not take a bite? How could I roll up that red velvet cake with cream cheese frosting all mixed in and not indulge?  Ugh…

I have had an incredible week of losing at least a pound a day as well as making extremely healthy choices with no cheats so in the grand scheme of things one bad day is not that bad.  But I want better for me, I want better for my family!  All I can do is repent and realize that tomorrow is a new day and I can do this!