Unsettled

Unsettled!  This word should be my new mantra! Why unsettle? Well unsettle means to alter from a settled state; cause to be no longer firmly fixed or established; render unstable; disturb!  These are all the things I need in order to regain control of my health!
I've had a heck of a last 5 weeks!  From moving away from family to podunk where there's nothing toddler friendly to do, to the death of my dad and a million other little things in between, each I have embraced as very valid excuses to be a pig for the last month and a half.  Its so easy for me to say its been a very hard day I deserve an extra large dr pepper, cheesy tot and ice cream to boot.  But its time, again, to start over.  And my prayer is simply for me to be unsettled!  Unsettled in the fact that Dr Pepper and Cheesy tots are not only against my docs orders but not okay to consume on a regular basis.  Unsettled in the fact that over 200 lbs is beyond unhealthy.  I could go on and on and on in the areas I need to be unsettled in, but more importantly I just pray that God shows me all the places of my heart and actions that need to change to the point of unsettling me so much that I desire and push for the change I need. 
A few friends and I started a new journey today!  21 days of focus!  The focus is different for each of us but through this journey we are reading an amazing devotional!  Made to Crave: 60 days to craving God not Food by Lysa Terkurst  

This devotional is amazing! There is also a book and 6 week action plan series too! In the devotional we are doing day 1s theme is 'Unsettle' which is my prayer and deepest desire through this next 21 days and beyond!  What do you need to be unsettled about?  

Psalm 139:23

The Message (MSG)

23-24 Investigate my life, O God,
    find out everything about me;
Cross-examine and test me,
    get a clear picture of what I’m about;
See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong—
    then guide me on the road to eternal life.

changes and thank yous

Thank you all for your supp and prayers through the passing of my dad... this past few weeks has been extra hard.  If you stumble upon my blog today its under construction so forgive the mismatching stuff... Thanks again friends  :)
Will be blogging more soon!

loss sucks

Yesterday my hubs went to get dinner and came home empty handed and took me to our room and said Im sorry baby but your dad died today....  yesterday was such a weird and rough day and something just felt off all afternoon its almost as if part of me knew something was coming?  I think I still havent fully grasped it. He has been a little sick, he was diagnosed with Afib a few months ago and has been weak because of it.  The meds he took to control it made him so tired and he wasnt able to be in direct sun light with out getting really sick.  I am mad that I am 3 hours away from the city but gearing up for the trip back later today.   Disbelief, anger, regret.. so many emotions... but here are some awesome pics...

Clean Cilantro Lime Fajitas & Cutie Patooties

Why do attempts to get good pics of your kids always end up in like 84 shots and only one half way good one out of the whole bundle.  Getting 3 toddlers to sit still at the same time is next to impossible! These 2 were the best of the best.. hahaha

 
Do your kids eat what you eat? Mine NEVER do and I feel like a big epic failure on the food homefont. I have 3 of the pickiest toddlers ever!  Tonight we made some Clean Cilantro & Lime Fajitas and they were so yummy! Who wouldnt want to have these?! 

Peppers, Onions & Chicken made in a lil bit of coconut oil, lime juice and cilantro with garlic and cumin.  Pretty super yummy!  topped off with a lil bit of fresh homemade salsa and guacamole! Yum!  We found the cleanest corn tortillas we could find bc my hubs isnt really up for just eating it with out wrapping it up! 
Of course the holiday was anything but clean but oh well life goes on! ha!  Excited for this long happy weekend with the hubs and my sweet babies!

New Adventures in My New Lil Hick Town

So last night was my first actual big grocery trip in my lil hick town Walmart. It was STRESSFUL!  First of all I am used to shopping at the commissary or at another local owned store chain that had amazing unbeatable prices! I have never bought groceries at walmart other than just a few things here and there.  I also joined a clean eating challenge group for July and did my best to shop 'clean' which made me very panicky!  Through the fruits and veggies section I was okay.  I actually felt great as I shopped the parameter of the store.  But when I had to move to the isles I got overwhelmed.  Looking at ingredients for the first time ever was eye opening to say the least.  Its amazing how much 'other stuff' is in everything!  
One of my friends started a new business called Bloom Holistic that focuses on Clean Eating and joining their first Clean Eating Challenge Group seemed like the best thing to get me going... I know I know.. I try it all! ha!  But clean eating is something I have done in the past and when I did it my health changed beyond belief.  Herbalife worked for me and I love the shakes and I still plan on incorporating them into my meals but they are in no way clean and I am not going to be doing 2 shakes a day for sure. I know I am not going to be able to be 100% clean but my goal is to be as clean as possible and to make changes in the kids stuff gradually.  I felt the worst when buying foods I knew they would eat.  Other than fruits and some veggies just about everything they eat is processed to the max.. danget!  They are so picky and rarely ever eat what we eat, which is a whole nother post!
Today I made my first 'Clean' breakfast and OMG it was yummy!   I called it Southwestern Crustless Quiche

5 Eggs 1 Cup of Salsa (all fresh ingredients from my dads garden with no chemicals!) 1/4 cup of Goats Cheese
Mix all together and pour in a pie pan and bake on 400* for 25ish mins ( i cooked until i poked with a knife and it came out clean! Then I topped it with avocado and salsa! YUM!   I am looking forward to this month and hoping to see some great benefits in my health and will be posting lots of clean eating recipes!