loss sucks

Yesterday my hubs went to get dinner and came home empty handed and took me to our room and said Im sorry baby but your dad died today....  yesterday was such a weird and rough day and something just felt off all afternoon its almost as if part of me knew something was coming?  I think I still havent fully grasped it. He has been a little sick, he was diagnosed with Afib a few months ago and has been weak because of it.  The meds he took to control it made him so tired and he wasnt able to be in direct sun light with out getting really sick.  I am mad that I am 3 hours away from the city but gearing up for the trip back later today.   Disbelief, anger, regret.. so many emotions... but here are some awesome pics...