Fixing to start the 40 day challenge...

In 2008 I was diagnosed with Cronhs Disease and in effort to control flare ups I went on a strict diet, pretty close to the Maker’s Diet by Jordan Rubin.  During this time I lost 75ish pounds in just a few short months!  I was also walking/jogging/running at least 4 times a week as well. 

Since getting pregnant with Benjamin, all of my Cronhs symptoms disappeared.  A lot of times pregnancy hormones suppress Cronhs symptoms and at times can even reverse the damage.   I have not had 1 symptom since February of 2009!  Because all of the symptoms were gone and I was pregnant and very over emotional and a little crazy I slowly started going back to the old way of eating and not exercising and during the course of my 1^st pregnancy gained a HUGE amount of that weight back!  I ate tons of fast food, didn’t exercise at all and basically just sat back prego and became a big ole fatty!  (I know pregnant isn’t fat, however I gained much more than necessary so fat is the correct term)  in just 2 short weeks I have already lost all of my 2^nd pregnancy weight but now have to work on what is left over from pregnancy #1.  Since my kids are 1 year and 10 days apart I really didn’t have time to really work on getting off the first weight gain before starting to gain with #2! 

Anyways my husband and I have decided to go back on the Makers Diet.  I am not someone who believes in crash diets or really diets in general.  Diets are great ways to loose weight however as soon as you go off the diet you generally gain the weight back.  It has to be a lifestyle change!  The Makers Diet is a great way of eating healthy not just as a crash diet but as a way of living! 

Today I am preparing our lists and getting ready and tomorrow is shopping day and Saturday is our day to start! I want to be healthy! I felt better, had no allergies or any other health problems when following this plan!  I will try to update weekly with our progress!  My goal over the next year is to lose a significant amount of weight (not ready to expose just how much because that would lead to just how very much I weigh, haha) and overall health!

The plan starts with a 40 day challenge!  Look for updates, pics and great progress reports!   

Making adjustments....

It has been a crazy week of adjusting, adjusting and more adjusting!  Today we have been home for 1 week and 1 day and it has felt like an eternity!!!  Last night was the 1^st night that Cloee didn’t seem to have day/night confusion. 

Tuesday night was so awful that on Wednesday I called my parents and begged them to come and get Benjamin for their day trip to the lake so I could sleep when Cloee did!  Luckily I have the MOST amazing parents and they love spending time with Benjamin!  Benjamin is papas buddy! That’s all he wants to say these days… Papa Papa Papa! I know papa eats it up!!!  I slept for 3 and a half hours with Cloee that day then Daddy got off early so sleeping was over haha but I’d much rather spend time with him them sleep! I only have him home for a few more months after all! 

Post-Partum Hormones are horrible! Some days I just cry for nothing and then cry for hours other days everything is perfect and no problems! Poor Hubs of course he always gets the brunt of the craziness!

On Wednesday night I thought I was going to lose my mind when at 430am I was still wide awake! She seemed to sleep ALL day long, only to wake up long enough to eat, and during the night would want to eat constantly and as soon as she would fall asleep, I would lay her down and she would start crying within 5 minutes.  By 3am I started crying and im pretty sure I cried for at least an hour straight!  Finally at 430 I woke up daddy (didn’t do it earlier because I knew he had to work and needed his sleep) and said you have to take her so I can at least sleep 3 hours before Benjamin wakes up!  Graciously he did and I got a tiny bit of sleep!!!   Then I just survived until Benjamins nap time! Luckily Cloee sleeps a lot and just happens to sleep when he does so I take advantage of that time and sleep right with them!!!

Thursday Morning I was just fixing to feed Cloee when I noticed a wretched smell reeking from my little monkey only to look over and see the dreaded poop coming out of the top of the diaper!!!  So I took him to his room and cleaned him up and started his laundry!!! Incidentally since I had a c section I am not supposed to be picking him up for 2-4 weeks.. haha yea right! How the heck is that supposed to work lol!  Gotta pick him up to put him in bed, get him out of bed put him in this high chair etc.. It hasn’t been to bad and I have been trying to limit it but really I am a stay at home mom with a hard working husband who works all day EVERY day and I have a 1 year old that needs attention love and care that I am not going to deprive him of! (don’t worry I’ve been careful, but you gotta do what you gotta do ya know)  Anyways after I got him all cleaned up I sat down and started feeding Cloee, Benjamin was playing with his toys when I noticed he seemed to be eating something and making funny faces!  I looked down to realize that I had missed a plop of poop from his blow out that had fallen to the floor!  OMG!  I put Cloee down and of course she started screaming and had to clean out his mouth, his hands, face and everything else OMG! Sooo nasty!!!  The day was full of sleepiness but joy in being able to have and play with such beautiful children! 

I decided it would be smart for me to go to sleep when Benjamin did at 8 and get sleep while I could and while daddy was awake to deal with anything that arose!  I went to sleep expecting another long miserable night that would begin in just a few hours and much to my surprise the night went great! She woke up at 1030, 2 & 6 to eat and went right to sleep after each time! Thank God!!!  I pray that trend continues and her day night confusion is all straightened out!!!! 

Looking forward to a great day with my 2 wonderful children and praying for her to continue to sleep at night!!!! (pics to come later!)

Busy Busy Busy

Orange & Pink Tutu for a 3 Year Old

 

I’ve been a busy bee making Tutus & Flower Clips for the past week!  I absolutely love doing it and am enjoying the custom orders that are coming in! Here are pics of my first custom order!

Matching Hair Clip

Matching Hair Clip

Purple & Pink Tutu for a 5 Year Old!

If you would like to order a Custom Made Tutu with Matching Flower Headband or Hair Clip leave me a comment for details!

Full of Regret!

Have you ever done anything you wish you could take back?  Ever done something so regrettable that you look at yourself in the mirror and can barely live with the decision you have made?  Ever try to get ready for the day and have a breakdown full of regret and sorrow?  Well… I am there! I did the most stupid, regrettable, horrible thing and there is NOTHING I can do to fix it except wait for time to heal the wounds of despair!  What is this despicable thing you ask, and how can I write such a dreadful blog? Well let me tell you the story (don’t worry its short)…

For weeks I have needed a change.  I have been so depressed about the current state of feeling like an overly large beached whale.  Each week the feeling gets worse when I have to go to the doctor and see the large number there on the scale (luckily last week I could no longer see the numbers on the scale).  So one day while the hubs was at work and the baby was sleeping quietly I looked in the mirror and decided that I wanted to change one thing that I had the power to change so i got out the scissors and decided I wanted my bangs back!  I had been asking my mom to trim them for weeks but when we have been together I never thought about it.  I slowly began to chop the inches away (obviously having NO idea what i was doing) pretty soon I had crossed the point of NO return! I have always liked the swoopy bang look, but cut a little much for the swoop to work and ended up with the school girl straight across look! OMG NO I won’t post pics it’s too awful!  This is my regret! No matter what I do I cannot fix it!  I look in the mirror and about cry and know that only time can heal this wound.  Hopefully by the time Cloee comes they will be long enough to at least be somewhat fixed by a professional! Hahaha I know totally not what you expected but I am 36 weeks prego and very dramatic at this point.  My poor hubs is married to a whiney drama queen for sure! Poor guy! Oh well only 23 days to go! 

I will end on this bit of advice… If you are thinking about making a life changing decision make sure that you are in a normal state of mind before making such life altering decisions on a whim!  And always always always look for a laugh when you have made an unfixable mistake!