Friday, December 31, 2010

Good bye 2010!

2010 is at an end and it has been a very eventful and rough year for our family! Looking back over the past year I can see how blessed we have been, how precious life is and how everything can change in the blink of an eye!

January through March we were very blessed! The hubs got to stay home with the monkey and I all week and only had to work weekends!  We got to spend lots of time loving our new addition, each other and having a blast! On our 1st anniversary in March we found out we were expecting baby # 2!  We were ridiculed quite a bit for having two babies so close together but we were excited and knew it would all work out!    

In April we spent most of the month in the hospital with monkey! He developed osteomyelitis (a staph infection he got from his 4 month immunizations) We were in the hospital for 3 weeks! Benjamin had 2 surgeries (leaving 3 narley scars) 2 blood transfusions, tons of prayers on his behalf and a mighty God on his side that brought him through healthy and whole! The doctors were surprised how well he did! He could have easily died but God had a bigger and better plan!!!

In May I took on a part time job for the summer to help with the finances and let daddy play Mr. Mom 4 days a week!  They had tons of fun going to the zoo, playing and bonding!

In July our worlds were turned upside down when my Aunt Sharon who was a flight paramedic in Fort Davis Texas was killed in a plane crash along with 5 other people.  She was an amazing woman and literally gave her life to help others!

In August we found out the hubs was going to be getting deployed sometime in early 2011!

In September I once again became a stay at home mom because I have such a super amazing husband! Our house got broken into and that’s about it!

In October I had a super awesome baby shower! We officially changed churches, a decision we had been trying to make happen for the entire year! We have been very blessed through this change and are looking forward to growing and getting more involved in 2011!!! Edmond Campus! We love it!!!

In November our Monkey turned 1!!!! And 10 days later our baby girl was born!  Got to bring Cloee home from the hospital on Thanksgiving day and our lives will never be the same again! We also decided 2 kids is all we are gonna have and feel great and at peace with that decision! God has blessed us greatly with 2 super beautiful children and I really couldn’t ask for more!!!
In November we lost on of our long time family pets Gidget.  She was a 32 lb black wiener dog who was around 10 years old! She has cancer but lived along, happy and very pampered life!!!

In December I had to take our 11 year old german shepherd wolf mix to be put to sleep due to heart failure.  He had heart problems ever since he got sick after being bit by a yucky tic several years back.  That was one of the hardest things I ever had to do!  We had an amazing Christmas with both of our children and great times with family even though the kids and I passed around the HORRIBLE stomach bug!  We also learned Deployment is coming sooner than we had expected.

Throughout 2010 I have been peed on, pooped on and puked on more times than I can count and I’ve gotten used to it and luckily those things don’t make me sick any more!  Haha! Im sure 2011 will bring double the amounts of accidents since there are now 2 of them!

I know 2011 is going to be one of the hardest years ever with deployment etc. but we have a mighty God who protects and has a plan and we will make it through stronger and better than ever!  Cant wait for the new year!!!!   Bring it on!!!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Epic Failure

Oh I did it! What I swore I would never do...  I used the dreaded word... 'Epic'! Haha! For months I have been totally annoyed by and hard core making fun of the over use of the word Epic... Everyone thinks everything is epic and it drives me up the wall! Oh well I conformed and I now feel like a part of the 'in crowd'!   Dork for sure!  anyways on to the point...

So we had plans to start the 'Makers Diet' and in the busyness of trying to learn the balance of raising a 13 month old a 5 week old and Christmas on top of that it was...well.... an EPIC FAILURE!!! It is so much more convenient to make something quick and easy instead of healthy! We actually have been eating pretty healthy, lots of chicken and veggies but there also has been lots of ice cream, desserts, and CHIPS! Ugh my dad works for a chip company and a big thanks to him for the dozens of bags of chips he unloaded on us a few weeks ago! Sheesh! Chips are my down fall! Along with the at least 2 eves a week when my husband says I want ice cream and proceeds to drive to Braums and come home with an ungodly portion of ice cream.  Forget the normal size shake he wants to order the LARGE! And of course you cant let it go to waste!  Somehow (only by the grace of God) I haven’t gained any weight over the holidays! 

On one hand I want health and order and to stinking lose weight on the other I am undisciplined and lost in the busyness of trying to figure out the balance of having 2 kids (one who is VERY jealous of the new one and testing out HUGE fit throwing parties that are wearing me out).  Well we are attempting something new starting January 3rd! We’re going to be doing the 21 day Daniel Fast!  (along with our church!!!!)  This is a great way to establish discipline and put down the flesh!  Right now I am in the middle of preparing meal plans, grocery lists and praying for specific focus of this fast!  During this 21 day fast we can only have fruits, veggies, whole wheat’s, beans and nuts and only water to drink! This is pretty much the way I ate when I was diagnosed with Cronhs in '08 and started eating strictly healthy and loosing so much weight with the exception of then I ate tons of meat! I wont be able to eat any for the 21 days!   

During this 21 days I am hoping to firstly grow closer to God through prayer, Bible study and specific focus on Him during this time, to grow closer to my husband while going through this together, to establish a routine of putting down my flesh for what is healthy and not always have to give it what it wants when it wants it, and to lose some weight in the process. Those are just a few things I am hoping to gain during this process. I also have specific spiritual goals to go along! 
I am looking forward to growing and changing in 2011! Look for updates to come!  Believing this time we wont have an epic failure but and epic triumph and the beginning of an Epic year!

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Focusing on the Eternal...

So this morning church was one of those kind of messages that I felt were just for me!  It started out and I was like ugh a guest speaker and the first half of the message didn’t seem to be of any interest then it started to sink in!  Luckily the hubs and I decided to go ahead and check Cloee into the nursery for the first time this morning.  With Benjamin we waited till he was almost 4 months old but he always slept like a rock throughout the entire service.  Cloee on the other hand wakes up and wants to fuss throughout service and I have spent the last several services out in the lobby with her.  I absolutely love the childrens ministry at our church and I feel very good and safe leaving both our kids in their care! Anyways!...

For the past several weeks I have been trying to figure out how to approach this next year with a one year old, a new born and a hubs soon to be on his way to war.  Todays message seemed to apply to where I am and give me a glimmer of hope!  The title was Never Loose Heart!  He was talking about how even though Paul had all this bad crap happening to him on the outside he never lost heart because his eternal focus outweighed the negative surrounding him!    

2 Corinthians 4:16-18
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal

Love that verse!  I have been wondering how I am going to make it through the next year with the hubs gone and this message really shed a lot of light on just how to approach it! 

1st Prayer! Gonna have to seriously up the prayer life! 
2nd Serving!  Gonna have to get involved and serve at church!
3rd Giving!  I will be looking for ways to be generous to others this year!
4th Sharing Jesus! Looking for other ways to share Jesus with those around me.

Really simple little things (easier said that done) but these 4 simple sounding things breathed a bit of life into my picture of this next year.  There are days that are going to just out right suck but I have to focus on the eternal and what is to come and not the moment at hand. Really you have to listen to the message to get the full impact and its simple to do! I have attached the link below. 

 So, yes I know this upcoming year is going to be the hardest i have ever had to face so far but I have a new outlook on it. But I will look at it knowing its temporary and better things are to come.  Focusing on Praying, Giving, Serving and Sharing are great ways to get through!  I thank God for my church and for messages that speak right to my heart!

2 Corinthians 4:16-18
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal

Monday, December 20, 2010

RIP Tramp! It was a rough day to say the least...

My dad was fishing at the lake the day after Christmas in 1999 and this little old man came up to him to chat while walking this cute little puppy on a leash.  My dad leaned down to pet the puppy and play with him a little while chatting and fishing.  The next thing he knew the old man was squealing away in his car and he left the puppy, leash and all next to my dad!  What was he to do? So he brought him home!  I fell immediately in love with him and since I had gotten the re- release of Lady and the Tramp for Christmas that year I decided to name him Tramp!  We became the best of buds!  He slept next to me most nights!  He grew HUGE and would hog up the whole bed!  At night I would say lets go to bed and I would have to race him to the bed and get my place or else he would be in the middle of my pillow!  Its funny how we sacrifice comfort for a pet!  I loved that dog and would sleep curled up on the edge of the bed many many nights!!!

Today was a very rough day! I had planned on spending the day at my parents house with my Tramp knowing that he was in his last days.  My mom called me this morning saying he was doing very badly and she was going to take him to the vet.  I was worried they would want to put him to sleep but she assured me that even if that happened she would bring him home for the rest of the day and do it later so we could say our good byes.  Well, they said he was in his final stages of heart failure and would need to be put down or else he would be suffering and slowly suffocating to death.  So I packed up the kids and headed to spend some time with him!  I decided that since he had been my dog my husband and I would take him to the vet after he got off work so my dad wouldn’t have to do it.  My dad just had to have another long time pet put down a few weeks prior due to cancer.  When I got to my mom’s house, Tramp was doing much worse and we made the decision we couldn’t let him suffer any longer and I had to take him right then. 
I was kinda scared to take him alone with out the hubs but I couldn’t handle watching him suffer any longer!  I got there got him in and said good bye and rubbed his nose till he was gone.  He just looked at me in the eyes and didn’t even seem scared and it was just like he went to sleep.  It happened so fast, I didn’t even realize they were doing it yet till the doctor said okay his heart isn’t beating any more.  I started sobbing like a baby of course! Soooo sad!  I hope that you never have to put down an animal!  It totally sucks but I know it was time and he lived a long happy comfortable life!

RIP Tramp!   It was a happy 11 years with you!!!  Had so much fun playing fetch, going to the lake, going for walks and runs and for having a snuggle buddy when I lived at home!  He really was an amazing sweet cuddly friendly happy dog!
I hope there are dogs in heaven!!!!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Deployment Deinal.....

For months I have tried to keep myself in denial about upcoming deployment!  I guess I figure as long as I keep denying it, I don’t have to deal with it. And in my own mixed up little mind I can fake myself into thinking it will never come!  If I even think about it I start to cry.  Today I got wind of the fact that it is coming about a month and a half sooner than I expected.  I am so not ready for this but ready or not it’s coming... and it’s coming full steam ahead! So now its time to start preparing and coming up with a game plan! 

Right now I am still in the mode of figuring out how to successfully be a mother of 2 babies who are 1 year and 10 days apart and adjusting to not only a new baby but a new baby with a 1 year old tottering around!  I’m starting to think of goals I want to set for not only myself but our kids as well.  What things do I want to accomplish in the next year? What ways am I going to keep myself busy and keep my sanity?  How am I going to cope with not having my best friend here with me every day? Just to name a few...

In a few weeks we will be attending Yellow Ribbon, I really have no idea what it all entails but I am sure that it will be full of information and hopefully not too many tears!  I am looking forward to having an entire weekend with my husband and I plan on asking my parents to watch the kidos 1 evening a week for the rest of our time together so I can have some time with just the hubs and I before he goes!  Asking for help is my biggest fear! I have never been good at it!  I guess it’s a pride issue or the fear of rejection but either way I have to learn to put that aside and be willing to ask for help if needed. 

I am so thankful for a husband who is willing to serve our country and I am fully supportive of him and his career.  I want to be a great supportive Military Wife and not be a sad whiny complainer who just sits around and feels sorry for myself.  But that doesn’t mean that this will be easy and that there wont be days that I don’t know how to cope but I am completely confident that with Jesus all things are possible and that he will protect my husband, bring him home safely and help us get through the year quickly and successfully! 

Mostly I am confident that we will be just fine I just hate being away from my husband! He truly is amazing and I love him more and more every day!  I know that God will protect him and I know that God will keep us strong I just selfishly want to be able to wake up next to my sexy man every day!  

If you are a military wife and have been through deployment please share some wisdom with me, pass on a tidbit of advice tell me how on earth you make it for an entire year!  We were apart for 8 months during basic and AIT but i got to talk to him and see him several times over that period of time.  That was hard... I cant even imagine how this coming year will differ... Ready or not.... not ready but gonna make it anyway!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Fixing to start the 40 day challenge...

In 2008 I was diagnosed with Cronhs Disease and in effort to control flare ups I went on a strict diet, pretty close to the Maker’s Diet by Jordan Rubin.  During this time I lost 75ish pounds in just a few short months!  I was also walking/jogging/running at least 4 times a week as well. 

Since getting pregnant with Benjamin, all of my Cronhs symptoms disappeared.  A lot of times pregnancy hormones suppress Cronhs symptoms and at times can even reverse the damage.   I have not had 1 symptom since February of 2009!  Because all of the symptoms were gone and I was pregnant and very over emotional and a little crazy I slowly started going back to the old way of eating and not exercising and during the course of my 1st pregnancy gained a HUGE amount of that weight back!  I ate tons of fast food, didn’t exercise at all and basically just sat back prego and became a big ole fatty!  (I know pregnant isn’t fat, however I gained much more than necessary so fat is the correct term)  in just 2 short weeks I have already lost all of my 2nd pregnancy weight but now have to work on what is left over from pregnancy #1.  Since my kids are 1 year and 10 days apart I really didn’t have time to really work on getting off the first weight gain before starting to gain with #2! 

Anyways my husband and I have decided to go back on the Makers Diet.  I am not someone who believes in crash diets or really diets in general.  Diets are great ways to loose weight however as soon as you go off the diet you generally gain the weight back.  It has to be a lifestyle change!  The Makers Diet is a great way of eating healthy not just as a crash diet but as a way of living! 

Today I am preparing our lists and getting ready and tomorrow is shopping day and Saturday is our day to start! I want to be healthy! I felt better, had no allergies or any other health problems when following this plan!  I will try to update weekly with our progress!  My goal over the next year is to lose a significant amount of weight (not ready to expose just how much because that would lead to just how very much I weigh, haha) and overall health!

The plan starts with a 40 day challenge!  Look for updates, pics and great progress reports!