For months I have tried to keep myself in denial about upcoming deployment! I guess I figure as long as I keep denying it, I don’t have to deal with it. And in my own mixed up little mind I can fake myself into thinking it will never come! If I even think about it I start to cry. Today I got wind of the fact that it is coming about a month and a half sooner than I expected. I am so not ready for this but ready or not it’s coming... and it’s coming full steam ahead! So now its time to start preparing and coming up with a game plan!
Right now I am still in the mode of figuring out how to successfully be a mother of 2 babies who are 1 year and 10 days apart and adjusting to not only a new baby but a new baby with a 1 year old tottering around! I’m starting to think of goals I want to set for not only myself but our kids as well. What things do I want to accomplish in the next year? What ways am I going to keep myself busy and keep my sanity? How am I going to cope with not having my best friend here with me every day? Just to name a few...
In a few weeks we will be attending Yellow Ribbon, I really have no idea what it all entails but I am sure that it will be full of information and hopefully not too many tears! I am looking forward to having an entire weekend with my husband and I plan on asking my parents to watch the kidos 1 evening a week for the rest of our time together so I can have some time with just the hubs and I before he goes! Asking for help is my biggest fear! I have never been good at it! I guess it’s a pride issue or the fear of rejection but either way I have to learn to put that aside and be willing to ask for help if needed.
I am so thankful for a husband who is willing to serve our country and I am fully supportive of him and his career. I want to be a great supportive Military Wife and not be a sad whiny complainer who just sits around and feels sorry for myself. But that doesn’t mean that this will be easy and that there wont be days that I don’t know how to cope but I am completely confident that with Jesus all things are possible and that he will protect my husband, bring him home safely and help us get through the year quickly and successfully!
Mostly I am confident that we will be just fine I just hate being away from my husband! He truly is amazing and I love him more and more every day! I know that God will protect him and I know that God will keep us strong I just selfishly want to be able to wake up next to my sexy man every day!
If you are a military wife and have been through deployment please share some wisdom with me, pass on a tidbit of advice tell me how on earth you make it for an entire year! We were apart for 8 months during basic and AIT but i got to talk to him and see him several times over that period of time. That was hard... I cant even imagine how this coming year will differ... Ready or not.... not ready but gonna make it anyway!